At that moment it hits me …. I ceased to really celebrate personal special days like my birthdays, valentine, new year, anniversaries. I have no longer joy in these days!
How I allowed myself to reach this stage! Am I depressed! Lost interest in life! Have no passion for life! Are all days the same!
I looked at dad again, he is much older than me; he is the one who should be depressed from all he went through & saw in his 69 years. Yet, he still celebrates new year from his heart.
My last lesson in the last day of 2009... I won't let what's so ever to deprive me from the joy of my special days. The joy is inside me, its a mental status, I control it.
I'll make sure that my resolutions for 2010 to include:
- Celebrating my birthday regardless of old memories & who is there to celebrate it;
- Celebrating new years with the joy of anticipating a new good days to come;
- Making sure to remember anniversaries when I fall in love again;
- Giving myself a gift on special occasions;
- & not to be with who stopped celebrating life.
